The Magic of Sports

I’ve always wondered what it is about sports that attracts so much of the population of this world. Following sports teams can be classified as millions of people’s main hobbies/recreational activities. It’s mind boggling to think that such a simple thing, watching physical competition, could capture the minds of so many people. I began to think of it on a personal level, to try to figure out why exactly it lures so many people in, and i found the answer to be pretty simple.

Watching the Patriots, or the Red Sox, or the Celtics, or the Bruins, or absolutely any other sports that i watch on a daily basis is the only thing that can level me out. I try to control nearly every aspect of my life, and im sure that that’s the same in a lot of other’s lives as well. You can’t control sports. The team you’re rooting for either wins or loses, and then it’s over. When you have no control over a situation, you have no worries; you can’t fret because the situation isn’t in your hands. You just have to watch how things pan out, and how they do so is uncontrollable. That’s the amazing thing, because if things do happen how you want them to, you still get the same sense of joy as if you were a vital part of the positive outcome. And if things don’t happen how you want them to, you lose, and you’re upset for a little while, but i find that it is very easy to move on from because there’s ALWAYS next game, next series, next year. There is always something that you can look forward to with promise. There’s always something that you can move on to, and that’s why people love sports.

Everything’s Backwards

This is my first post, and i hope that people will some how some day navigate to my page and at least some of the the things that i have written will be read by somebody. That was a slightly excessive. Let me start off by providing you with some general information about myself: I reside in Massachusetts, I’m of the male gender, and quite frankly my age doesn’t matter. I enjoy playing golf, following all Boston sports teams, and reading. That’s about as general of a profile of me as you can get and honestly i think its completely appropriate. So let’s begin.

I tend to find myself in front of this goddamn computer for a large portion of the day. I place myself in this semi-comfortable chair, pull out the keyboard and manage to stare into this screen for hours on end. Generally the all empowering you tube is open in at least one of the myriad tabs i have open (might i add they are very helpful). And ironically, even though it’s a video sharing website, I’ll be using it to listen to music because I’m a.) too lazy to open up my iTunes and b.) i find my music lacking in what i want, when i want it.

When I’m in a good mood, I’ll be listening to third eye blind. When I’m in a bad mood, I’ll be listening to Radiohead. When I’m not in a mood I’ll be listening to Modest Mouse. Personally, in my opinion, those are the three best bands out there currently. But i wont get into that. What I’m trying to say is half of the time when I’m sitting at this computer is when i think about what I’m feeling. And a lot of the time it leads to even more negativity than i had when i first sat in this very chair. I have no idea why i do this, there are so many possibilities on the computer, and i find myself doing those as my secondary task, where thinking about everything will be first.

It was just a few days ago when i was sitting in this chair that i thought of something that for some reason carried great significance to me. You see, i don’t really want to get into my personal experiences, i want to explain my discoveries based on feelings that I’ve gained from them. Thought it may prove a difficult task, I’ve decided to attempt anyways.

What i realized was that no one will EVER in their entire life be perfectly content with their situation, the moment they’re in, or their life in general. Never will someone feel every possible burden fall off of themselves to the point where they are completely free. People are always, constantly, striving and working for what they want. And half the time by the time they reach their goal (if they do) the already want something different. In my case, i constantly find myself wanting something terribly, and losing interest quite soon after. I never know what i want. And if i never know what i actually want, how am i supposed to ever be content with myself? Because no matter what i have, I’ll find an imperfection thats going to tell me i deserve something more. It’s always more more more. And I’m not speaking in specific terms, this applies to everything for me. If i don’t know what i want, how am i to accomplish anything? And if i don’t accomplish anything, how am i supposed to be happy?

I strongly feel like I’m not the only one that feels this. It’s a source of thousands of problems in this world. People not knowing what they want. “I want to marry her, I’m sure”. The divorce rate flies. “Nope, this is definitely the job that fits me perfectly”. About what, 98% percent of people absolutely HATE their occupations? It just absolutely TEARS at me that in the rest of my long lifetime, it’s very possible that i may NEVER be completely happy. It tears at me.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that people have to try to be happy in this world; you have to put yourself in the right mindset. And honestly, there’s something wrong with that. It shouldn’t be that way. I don’t know if happiness will ever come to me, or if i have to run to happiness. But i know that it makes me look at things in a completely different way. It makes me look at the little things, i look at them and think of the promise of joy that they could bring to me if i tried. Maybe that’s how most people make it through their lives. But i don’t try. Because i still don’t know what i want. And who knows if i ever will.